An Anniversary Thank You

This week marks the one-year anniversary of the my first blog. During the intervening year–as I promised myself–I’ve written at least one blog per week. It’s an accomplishment that fills my writer’s heart with more than a little pride. When I began blogging in December, 2010 I told myself it was mainly to gain some…

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A Birthday Milestone

It wasn’t until late last night while snuggled on the couch that it occurred to me that PadLo’s birthday was sometime in October. I checked out ohpadlo.com and realized not only was I correct, but I was in the waning hours of his very birthday! Considering I was pushing the boundaries of my bedtime I…

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A Generous and Welcome Gift

As I’ve written before since Ken died, “firsts” are difficult–both figuratively and literally. It was June 1st when Ken left us. Today marks the three month anniversary of losing a man who brought a texture, depth, dimension and a sense of play to my life that will forever be unmatched. My head knows those things…

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Belonging

It’s not often I’m able to get together with four of my closest friends–at the same time. The last time all five us were together was at my birthday a couple of years ago, where Ken orchestrated two of them who came the furthest (St. Louis and Los Angeles) as surprises. Alan, Kathy, Retta, Tina…

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Connecting

I have to admit while I was walking up Lincoln Avenue to the Tiny Lounge last evening I had butterflies in my stomach and was filled with a medley of feelings that ran the gamut. I was excited to see Claire–like “date” kind of excited, perhaps not knowing what to fully expect or maybe expecting…

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My $2k T-Shirt

Every so often I stumble across a neatly folded red t-shirt tucked way back in my closet when I’m organizing or looking for something. I’m always compelled to unfurl it, unfailingly get lost in memories. It’s my two-thousand-dollar t-shirt. I’ve never worn it. I’m not even sure I’ve ever washed it, but I have considered…

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Ojai, How Are Ya?

Like most small town kids, I had a 25″ console television in my bedroom when I was growing up. I was a shy, introvert who spent hours alone, entertaining myself. But no matter what I was doing, the boob tube was on, beckoning me into one zany adventure after another. I made many friends in…

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Finding a New "Normal"

Today felt like the beginning…of something. With Ken’s Memorial Soiree a jumble of fond memories and feelings, today the remnants of my out-of-state family left to return to their lives in California. There was nothing standing between me and my future. It was a good day overall. Cleaning, laundry and prepping for heading back to…

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Soirée of a Lifetime

Yesterday was the Memorial soirée for Ken–my partner, husband and friend of 10 years. The day and the event can only be described as “perfect.” It went off exactly as it was supposed to and was exactly what I expected, hoped for and needed in order to feel a sense of closure and to gain…

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A Better Day

Good days should be acknowledged. And today was one of those days. No tears came today–not that that would have been a bad thing. But for the time being appears i’ve reached my quota of saline production. I made the conscious choice to not work on the memorial soiree, though my “to do” lists are…

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